Emotional Daily Journal March 22th, 23th, 24th

Hello, I am Tsuyoshi.

I could not post this blog for 3 days. I am sorry about that.
My part-time job had begun and I also worked part-time yesterday.

ummm.... I do not remember what I have done on 22th and 23th.
I think I stayed at home all day in 22th and I wrote my first mission statement draft. It is not complete. I need to keep working on it.

on 23th
I had my second day at work at McDonald. I work as a stocker who  prepare meet or vegetables for meal we serve. It is a little bit dangerous, I actually I got my hand a little bit burned, and actually it would leave some mark on my skin. It is a little bit sad and I wanted to my hand clean and beautiful, but my body is not things that I can control so  I do not care about it so much, and try hard to change my action that I will got less burned in the future. I was taught by two female workers there. It was a good time, and I could learn a lot.

on 24th
It was my third day at work. I started to work as an assembler who makes burgers, using ingredients that stockers prepared.

Okay, I would like to set a goal in my part-time work life because I think it is not interesting just to work and get money. I want more life experiences in this precious experience that I have.

1.One of my goals is to be one of the best worker at McDonald. First, there are some criteria that the company set for a good worker like speed of making burgers or stocking. I first complete all of these things. After that I would like to fully understand how the business works and anticipate what works and what does not.
Maybe, I can learn what I learned for my future business.

2.The second goal is to know people. Every person has their own paradigm and ideas. I analyze people there like a game, and try to understand their way of seeing the world and human nature, learning about people.


OK, I had strong emotional reaction yesterday night. As I thought about my crush, I felt very sad and lonely because I have not meet her for one month. I think fall in love is a disease that makes people irrational. I know she is not in our control, but she sticks to my mind so strongly that I cannot stop thinking about her. I think it was loneliness I left. I think it is also because I did not do masturbation for a long time that I felt my sexual libido increased.